Yo yo I had to I had to go deep inside my mind

I was talking to homegirl I had to try to figure it out yo

Yo I'm trying to improve self-improvement

Through through what

I'm trying to keep it real with myself right

Sometimes my weakness still surprises me

I try to fight it but the p***y mesmerizes me

I ain't even worried 'bout how tight it be

Don't know what I'm doing if it's wrong or if it's right to me

I get so excited be every time a cutie saying hi to me

I ain't trying to lie to her or lie to me

Guess that that's the irony

Nonetheless I'm tireless entirely

Now she thinks she needs a tire iron and a eye on me

Time to face my mommy issues finally

Time to take the oils to the refinery

She be always rolling eyes and sighing at the sight of me

She was always fighting me

Got all in my psyche

Ever since it seems the thought of being alone has always frightened me

To the point that people use to liken me

To some type of player but I wasn't playing

I was always praying she be staying

All of those erections in different directions I be swaying

Had me feeling like a phony

One day I'm always calling her calling her tenderoni

Next day I'm feeling lonely

See I ain't never give these women time to be my homie

I'm busy trying to take them home I need someone to hold me

I never took the time to let them show me

I was all for moving forward the unknown

'Til I found out they didn't know me

My heart was those degrees below that shit was all baloney

I wanted that maria meeting tony

And now I'm sitting home and steady on the bone

Ain't got to one to blow me

I got no one that go no one and only

And luckily I'm in the zone with writing songs since time be moving slowly

Without no one to work the pole or to ride the pony

I'm also into cuddling

But I'm never cool just being a hunk I'm always trying to be the husband

Yo it be just a couple pumps I'm trying to call her pumpkin

I always knew that I was up to something

Yo look all in my file my whole style been denial and delusion

I wanted the illusion

I speak on future that shit would confuse them

I was using them

Figured since I usually was choosy while I was choosing them

Found them then I frowned on the notion of ever losing them

I became a loser though

Saying all the right things for the wrong reasons

Thought I so my conscious and conversations were clear

But entire situations my motivation was fear

Currently my motivation is willingness to evolve

Hear the voices I don't listen I have discipline and resolve

There's no need to answer yes to every single invitation

Had enough of playing doctor time to play some operation

More precise movements less the oscillation

More procrastination less the proclamations less the isolation

This is something that I owe to myself

When I grow it's the goal of getting a hold of myself

I don't know how that's gonna go but it's gotta go

Hot or cold yo I'mma hold on tight and go geronimo

Now the pose is trying to be adult and try a new approach

And I'm quite excited at the prospect of some new results

Get my hair right 'stead of always trying to poke

Get my heart right while it still has got a post before it's broke

Get the venom and the sickness out my system before I find another victim

Only one that's even truly on my wish list is my wisdom

So I'm off my shit and on to right my ship and keep it steady

When I meet her I'll be ready if we haven't met already

Take a rest then rescue me acting like a refugee

Which has been my specialty but the truth shall set me free

I been fishy as a fisherman with fishes in the sea

But now the hydra's slain I'm hydroplaning plain as you can see

I'm rolling

From someone to spoon with soon as I can sleep

Now I'm off to make the ladies swoon as soon as I can be

Peace