I used to have dreams of k**f

14 I was miserable

I figured I’d start rappin' 'cuz at home I felt invisible

Had dreams of the mother land

While, fearing my mothers hand

My, dad would be working

While my, mother f**d other men

N**a how about that

Life ain’t simple as it seems

I put the meaning in that

Too scared of what the future held

So I denied it

I was pissed I didn’t make it yet

The root was my defiance

Let the fire burn

And let that shit rock

Noose around my neck, when Imma do it?

N**a tick tock

Feelin all of this shit piling like sand dunes

Couple years ago you would find me dead in my bedroom

Told me keep on going till I find some peace

So Imma lay this shit down so I can die in my sleep

They told me keep on going till I find some peace

So Imma lay this shit down so I can die in my sleep

I put the meaning and love in all of my craft

But why the f**k I’m takin' tests if there’s no chance of me to pass n**a

All my life I was focused on being that n**a

People that I used to know still askin' if I rap n**a

Not happy with this shit I never been I mean it man

Discouraged 'cuz I thought that I would blow like a ceiling fan

I started writing lyrics for this shit just for some clarity

Now every time I hit the studio it’s like it’s therapy uh

Nobody there for me uh

My brother scared for me uh

My girl keep telling me you

You ain’t been there for me uh

I was raised towards emotions to never mind him

so when I started looking for myself I couldn’t find it

I couldn’t find it never I couldn’t find it remember shit so vividly that I can go rewind it

Remember where I was when I got word of Tommy‘s death

and I remember every second of the day my mama left

And so it’s f**k that b**h I’m screaming f**k that b**h

Don’t give a shit about nothin' don’t even love that b**h

And so it’s f**k that b**h I’m screaming f**k that b**h

Don’t give a shit about nothin' don’t even love that b**h dawg

I talk about that shit so much sound like a broken record

Heading toward the point where the music ain’t had me feeling better

Had it mentally maybe if I just spit it clever

Niggas would just notice me recognition I got it never

Trynna hit my phone but I ain’t there

They yellin' “black is the color of my true loves hair”

Can’t even try to write man I just sit and I stare

Seven years been trynna make it off a kick and a snare

told me keep on going till I find some peace

So Imma lay this shit down so I can die in my sleep

They told me keep on going till I find some peace

So Imma lay this shit down so I can die in my sleep