It's been while since we talked

I walked and walked and I got lost

And once again, I ended up back here

You say to come just as I am

But do you mean those things You said

I've got so many questions and so much fear

Do You even notice me

As my brain's on fire and I'm losing sleep

You say You're here

But God, that's hard to believe

Can I just be real for a minute

The trust in You gets lost in my feelings

This war inside is flesh and spirit

And it feels like flesh is gonna win it

But You're the one I put my faith in

The proof is that I'm still here praying

I know You care what my heart's really saying

So God, let's have an honest conversation

I'm laying all of my cards down

Nothing left to hide, not now

What's the point if I can't tell the truth

You say You're here inside my heart

Then why God do You feel so far

When all I want is to feel so close to You

Can I just be real for a minute

The trust in You gets lost in my feelings

The war inside is flesh and spirit

And it feels like flesh is gonna win it

But You're the one I put my faith in

The proof is that I'm still here praying

I know You care what my heart's really saying

So God, let's have an honest conversation

An honest conversation

If You love me

Then why do I hate myself

If You want me

Then why do I want to be someone else

If You know me

Then why do I feel so alone

If there's answers

Then God, won't You tell me so

Can I just be real for a minute

The trust in You gets lost in my feelings

This war inside is flesh and spirit

And it feels like flesh is gonna win it

But You're the one I put my faith in

The proof is that I'm still here praying

I know You care what my heart's really saying

So God, let's have an honest conversation

An honest conversation