Five in the morning layin' up in bed

Jottin' down all the bullshit of what you said

Inside my heart is breaking

And I'm tired of the faking like it don't

Hurt when I see him come around

Not even blink-182 can ever drown him out

I'm tired of pretending

Online Songs are never ending even though

You clearly know how much it brings me down

And it's a little messed up you still keep him around

You call it f**g envy

I'm not jealous I'm offended by the fact

If it were me to chill with Melody

In a parking lot at midnight, you'd be leaving me

I'm sick of the hypocrisy

Defensive when I ask

Is he still on your mind

Is he in your heart

Do I want to know

What happens in the dark

You said it's one last try to set things straight

And I just don't mean to instigate

It ain't one last try a thousand times

I could see it in your face

It f**g brings me down

I'm hating on myself

I'm feeling like a clown

Am I the joke

You say I've lost my head

And that you're over him

You say he's just a friend

That you've loved before

Two in the noon I'm dead asleep in bed

Dreamin' 'bout all the things that I wish I'd said

Inside my head's awake cuz in my mind I can't escape from Cain at all

Or the ghosts of the guys you've known

Don't call it selfish when I took your issues into my home

I salted your windows, locked your doors, and at the crossroads I had traded my soul for yours

You told me things that I knew were lies

Like how his DM's in your phone were hidden for a time

Then your come-clean, came as no surprise

Still, you wondered why I ask

Is he still on your mind

Is he in your heart

Do I want to know

What happens in the dark

You said it's one last try to set things straight

And I just don't mean to instigate

It ain't one last try a thousand times

I could see it in your face

It f**g brings me down

I'm hating on myself

I'm feeling like a clown

Am I the joke

You say I've lost my head

And that you're over him

You say he's just a friend

That you've loved before