I was high on my fumes

I was blind to the love

I was lying I was crude

You were crying cause I left

I just tripped

Perspective has been switched

Sorry I'm not nice

But I'm always real

I know I was never there

When you needed me

That hurt you so much

You started bleeding deep

I'm sorry girl

I know I'm not nice yeah

But I've always been real with you

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I'll drown myself again (I'm drowning)

to hold you

I was never there (I was never there)

I knew you were scared

You cut yourself for the life I'm trying to paint

I can't promise you no pain

I saw who I became

I wish I could tell you I'm the one to blame

I got issues rooted deep

I just took a dive to see

All it took was ketamine

Saw you through your eyes

No more lies I'm coming clean

I'll be back if I can find myself again

I'm not always nice but I'm always real

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I'll drown myself again (I'm drowning)

to hold you

I was never there (I was never there)

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I was never there (oh I was never there)

To hold you

I'll drown myself again (I'm drowning)

to hold you

I was never there (I was never there)

I know I was never there