I'm on the phone, but these dudes ain't really listenin

I'm all alone, just a code up in the system, yeah

I go home and I feel like I been glistening

But in the city I just feel like I ain't fittin in

Its been a couple years, I've had my ups and downs

Forgot a lot of nights, I live for lost and founds

My teeth are grinded down, my patience wearing thin

Gained and lost a lot of pounds, my body image fairly grim

I got this feeling that someday I'll finally make it

Just to realize that everybody always makes it

It's just your definition of the life that you been chasing

But dreams are for the sleep, I think it's time that we all face it

I'm back to basics, one oh one

High fives all around cause the albums done

Sad emojis tossed around, cause the year was tough

No matter how hard we work, it never feels like enough

I'm on the road, I'm not sure where it goes

And I'll just go where it takes me, thinking nobody know

And I just know that they hate me when I'm writing these poems

I don't let that shit phase me, I been so full of hope

I write these lyrics as I'm looking in the mirror

Then I rap like I'm sober while I'm sipping my beer

Then my cravings grow stronger after every drink

I used to wanna be like Mac, but now I'm facing my fears

Cause I don't wanna be another sad story in the making

The worlds here and it's mine for the taking

I used to be afraid, so scared I was shaking

Found hope in the drugs that I'm no longer taking