Don't wanna run from the person who I am

But I'm scared of the person that I've become

Outside lookin quiet, but the inside is a riot

Think the C.O went K.O, damn those demons so defiant

Like that friendly giant, smoking on that green

Wanna be the highest, life'll be serene

Dream sail like marine, despair back like routine

My life I have foreseen, one dead reported at the scene

Cop reported homicide, but really it was suicide

Hide the name, don't want the fame

Just want the joy that came with it

Any drug you know I'm wit it, don't touch my wrist, know I slit it

Cop another 50 bag, hope the dealer stepped in it

First line my head drop on the desk, I dreamt of it

Isolated like a cultist in hopes my pain goes unnoticed

Line for line but still won't get me high, no one even knows this

Think I need a stronger dose, I feel it death is f*****g close

If I hide no one else will be in danger

Collateral damage let me be a stranger

Aura isn't colorful, my energy contagious

Walking rainy day, don't wanna ruin your parade

Drugs turned me to a zombie, but I wouldn't trade it

All led me to this moment, so I'd never change it

Chasing dreams, I'm by my lone, watch me I'm gonna range it

Somewhere 'fore I hit my peak, I'll ode I arranged it

Too much heartbreak in this life, stay away I said it twice

Heart is cold as ice, don't wanna be another vice

One day I'm gon' make it shatter, keep the blessings on the platter

Cuz to me life never mattered, just want an impact that'll scatter

All across the world make something you can cry to

Crucify myself like Jesus, so you ain't gotta die too

Don't be scared to let out feelings from the s**t you've been through

Emotions in a cage, unlock no telling what they gon' do

If I hide no one else will be in danger

Collateral damage let me be a stranger

Aura isn't colorful, my energy contagious

Walking rainy day, don't wanna ruin your parade

Drugs turned me to a zombie, but I wouldn't trade it

All led me to this moment, so I'd never change it

Chasing dreams, I'm by my lone, watch me I'm gonna range it

Somewhere 'fore I hit my peak, I'll ode I arranged it

National emergency, please stay away from the drugs

Shit is really killing me, trust me you don't wanna feel

Smile on your face tell me how it'd feel?

Had it stripped away for me, it's been years to keep it real

Those connections with your peers must be nice

Say goodbye, in your room getting high

Your goddaughters looking for you, little life miracle

Uncles not around, probably smoked out in his vehicle

Never learned to deal with feelings, can you f*****g blame me?

Never understood me, they just gonna shame me

Paranoid cuz you don't wanna get caught

But you ever gave this a quick second thought?

Worried 'bout the wrong chains, you already up in shackles

Listen closer to your mind you'll hear Satan cackle

Karma playing qb, the devil is the tight end

Karma gives the green light, Satan goes for tackle