Lookin’ back at the past like damn was I toxic

Blamin’ others for my problems and damn that’s ironic

I was broke, I would blow my last dollars to smoke chronic

So know that I’m gon write as long as I got it

I was lost burnin’ bridges as soon as I crossed em

I would skip work and lie to my bosses

I would drag women right into my nonsense

Giving them problems they shouldn’t have regardless

Yeah regardless if they loved me or not

I couldn’t trust em, busy livin’ as somebody I’m not

Projecting issues that’s within you and your soul gonna rot

I remember tweakin’ police gonna come to my spot

If I got popped there ain’t no option man I’m gonna get locked

So paranoid I thought they roped my homies into the plot

They think they know me, I proceeded to be livin’ a lie

Love don’t mean shit if it isn’t inside, I’ll tell you why

Sometimes I feel like I’m living to die

Or like I do not have the words for how I’m feeling inside

I know I hurt a lot of people, a result of my pride

I feel like you can see right through me so I cover my eyes

With polarized Ray Ban lenses

Despite my best intentions

These past few months been pretendin’

Didn’t end it and you felt it

I’m on the line sometimes I might feel like I’m a psycho

A psycho

My mind had me feeling like I was trapped inside a cycle

A cycle

You say I should stay, it’s okay, to be honest, girl I might go

I might go

She turn them lights down low & I spend another night though

Tonight though, my flight’s gone

Sometimes I feel like I’m living to die

Or like I do not have the words for how I’m feeling inside

I know I hurt a lot of people, a result of my pride

I feel like you can see right through me so I cover my eyes

With polarized Ray Ban lenses

Despite my best intentions

These past few months been pretendin’

Didn’t end it and you felt it