I was 16 when the bell on the phone rings
It's my homie from church an ex dope fiend
A little older wore his heart on his shoulder
A hiphop head so we connected on the totem
Back then I'd kick verses and he'd be on the scrotum
I wish he were around to
Hear these verses that I wrote Him
Just to clear the air
Confusion and misquotings
A good kid with black
Clouds following his motions
Like" hear ye hear ye"
But they don't hear me
The headline I've read for
The tenth time its eerie
"Three dead including
Sunday school teacher
An ex dope fiend
Turned extroverted church leader"
Is this real my hairs raised suddenly
I'm drowning in emotion
While shivers swim subtly
I read on an affair that ends tragic
Teachers pleads for life
Down the barrel of a magnum
Then point blank shot
Dead together with his lover
Before the lovers husband
Took his own life from him
My eyes turned red
Welled up a watered gaze
From hurt fear and let
Down in lots of ways
God Why would you
Allow this if you save
When evil lurked within
Why did my homie disobey
We got one life is it ok to be afraid
Many don't have that option
Stomping through this maze
It is ok to be afraid many don't have that option
That's so we mourn today
Rest in peace
Here one day then gone away
Things will never be the same
Here one day Here one day)
Then gone away
And all that remain is the pain
I remember her soft skin and her caress
The mistakes that I made and her grace
When I confessed like politics me
And her it was complex but all the stains
Would wash away each time our minds connect
We had history old school like a cassette
Together we opened doors
Explored she knew me best
I imagined us forever ever ever
But now I wish I never met her
Why won't this feeling letup
I can't forget her staring at our empty bed
The silence is screaming at me so
I stay awake instead and in the sheets
There's rooms for extra legs on my phone no SMS
Missed calls or messages from tying the knot
To farewells crying
My stomach twisted up in
Knots like Bear Grylls tied them
The start and end it comes full sphere
From the cradle to the grave
I wish you were here
Here one day
Then gone away
Things will never be the same
Here one day Here one day)
Then gone away
And all that remain is the pain
It's been a little while
Since I seen your face
Getting kinda hard to move on
But the pain is motivation
And I'm doing my job
Running innovation know the song
It's been a little while
Since I seen your face
Getting kinda hard to move on
But the pain is motivation
Though its frustrating
You don't know what you have until it's gone
When it's gone
When it's gone away gone away
