Living my life in the rear view
And I'm haunted by
My past and sometimes I just wanna die
I need to change my ways
Momma, I'm gonna try
But that's a lie 'cause you heard me say that a thousand times
I say Lord please help me
'Cause I've been living unhealthy
And the life that I've been living, Lord
Can I really be forgiven for?
And I don't wanna let you go
I think about you now everywhere I roll
Somewhere down the road, I lost my soul
And I know 'cause it glitters doesn't mean it's gold
And I don't wanna hurt nobody
I just wanna let the truth be told
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But I'm about to lose my self-control
And they ask me how I'm feeling
I'm somewhere between Hendrix and Robin Williams
Hide behind the tears of a clown
And the sound, of silence, it seems so loud
Would you just look at me now
When I take a shot of Crown
And wash this Percocet down?
Played the victim for too long
To justify my habits
Knowing everything I touch turns tragic
And I don't wanna let you go
I think about you now everywhere I roll
Somewhere down the road, I lost my soul
And I know 'cause it glitters doesn't mean it's gold
And I don't wanna hurt nobody
I just wanna let the truth be told
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But I'm about to lose my self-control
I guess I'm narcissistic cause I'm trying to get it
Am I being selfish attempting to rid my life from the drama in it
See it was harder coming home than going in
Hard to understand this statement unless you came from where I've been
Why is it difficult to do right
But so easy to sin?
Find the peace in losing to move on
From the chaos of the win
That demon in the mirror is still the saint that he portrays
So the songs of tomorrow borrow sorrows from today
And I don't wanna let you go
I think about you now everywhere I roll
Somewhere down the road, I lost my soul
And I know 'cause it glitters doesn't mean it's gold
And I don't wanna hurt nobody
I just wanna let the truth be told
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But I'm about to lose my self-controL
