I am a burden on everyone in my life.
I don't deserve anything.
I will sit and watch everyone I know grow in love and get married.
why I sit alone and do nothing.
I am not a good person.
I am selfish.
I ruin everything with my own selfishness.
I will be alone when I die.
I long for a deep connection that I will never have.
I will always be in a constant cycle of feeling like this.
I will always want more.
I will never be satisfied for more than a few months at a time.
I apologize to my friends.
I apologize to everyone I know.
I am selfish, angsty, and embarrassing.
I have become someone I hate.
I will never have a wife.
I will visit my friends and meet their wives and husbands and children.
and feel a deep, ugly jealousy.
I will end up sad and alone, and the only person to blame will be me.
I love you and I'm sorry for everything.
