In my unmade bed with this screen I never left

Is this all I could want? Is this all 21 is?

All my texts unread and a cup of comparison

'Cause I need the caffeine, and it's funny that she never did

'Cause my 6 years old self didn't cry

About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs

And she never ran out of time

In her eyes

I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell

She would've pulled me out by now

And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose

'Cause she believed in me more than I do

All the nights I should've slept

But couldn't keep my hands to myself

They were too busy scrolling 'til five in the morning

'Til I have nothing left

And I don't really care what the mirror shows me

When my eyes are saying they don't even know me

'Cause now I'm jealous of the younger me

And she don't have to pay for therapy

I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell

She would've pulled me out by now

And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose

'Cause she believed in me more than I do

'Cause my 9 years old self didn't cry

About eating or breathing or songs she can't write

And she never hated the brown in her eyes

And she never waited to run out of time

Yeah, my 6 years old self didn't cry

About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs

And she never ran out of time

In her eyes

I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell

She would've pulled me out by now

And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose

'Cause she believed in me more than I do

If I called her out, would she pick up now?