dear god please
hear me out i know it's been a couple years
since i've reached
out and said hello i bet you're wondering
why i keep
obsessing on and stressing all the little things
when i should be
living life and soaking up the memories
i know i've been selfish i have
no excuse to give you it's true
hanging by a thread's how i live
i don't know why but i feel more comfortable
living in my agony
watching my self esteem go up in flames acting like i don't
care what anyone else thinks
when i know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how i
feel but i'm too proud to open up and ask you
to pick me up and pull me out this hole i'm trapped in
the truth is i need help but i just can't imagine
who i'd be if i was happy
yeah been this way so long
it feels like something's off when i'm not depressed
i got some issues that i won't address
i got some baggage i ain't open yet
i got some demons i should put to rest
i got some traumas that i can't forget
i got some phone calls i've been avoiding
some family members i don't really connect with
some things i said i wish i would've have not let slip
some hurtful words that never should've left my lips
some bridges burned i'm not ready to rebuild yet
some insecurities i haven't dealt with yes
i'll be the first to admit that i'm a lonely soul
and the last to admit i need a hand to hold
losing hope heading down a dangerous road
strange i know but i feel most at home when i'm
living in my agony
watching my self esteem go up in flames acting like i don't
care what anyone else thinks
when i know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how i
feel but i'm too proud to open up and ask you
to pick me up and pull me out this hole i'm trapped in
the truth is i need help but i just can't imagine
who i'd be if i was happy
don't know what's around the bend
don't know what my future is
but i can't keep on living in
living in my agony
watching my self esteem go up in flames acting like i don't
care what anyone else thinks
when i know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how i
feel but i'm too proud to open up and ask you
to pick me up and pull me out this hole i'm trapped in
the truth is i need help but i just can't imagine
who i'd be if i was happy
if i was happy
if i was happy
