Wasn't raised religious

But I wish that I was

Having nothing to believe in

It’s been killing my buzz

Yeah I comb my hair, close the blinds

Play Hallelujah like two dozen times

And yesterday, I tried to pray

But I didn't know what to say

I'm too sad to cry

Too high to get up

Don’t even try 'cause I'm scared to f**k up

Don't like to talk

Just lay in my bed

Don't even try to go out with my friends

Lied to my doctors she knew I was faking

Gave me some pills but I'm too scared to take them

I try and I try

But I'm too sad to cry

Can't tell my mama

It makes her worry

I’m not suicidal

Sometimes the lies get all blurry

Yeah I comb my hair, close the blinds

Play Hallelujah like two dozen times

And yesterday, I tried to pray

But I didn’t know what to say

I'm too sad to cry

Too high to get up

Don’t even try 'cause I'm scared to f**k up

Don't like to talk

Just lay in my bed

Don’t even try to go out with my friends

Lied to my doctors she knew I was faking

Gave me some pills but I'm too scared to take them

I try and I try

But I'm too sad to cry

I'm too sad to cry

Too high to get up

Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to f**k up

Don't like to talk

I just stay in my bed

Don't even try to go out with my friends

Lied to my doctors she knew I was faking

Gave me some pills but I'm too scared to take them

I try and I try

But I'm too sad to cry