Yeah I stare at the clouds when I'm feeling down Reflecting on life and noticing how That during the silence all my thoughts get loud So I block him out when she wasn't around

But I guess life has a way of removing the people who do not deserve you.

And it has a way of you feeling connected to all those same people that hurt you.

I'll be the first one.

Say I made mistakes, I don't give down that I am not perfect.

Lately I've been isolating myself and digging deep to rediscover my purpose.

Strangers see me as an artist, but they don't see the pain I bury underneath the surface.

I know what I feel inside.

I just don't know how to word it.

We love who hurts us and hope they could change.

Until they hurt us, they hurt us again.

Then we start to change and cause others pain.

The cycle repeats and it doesn't break.

A product of trauma, oh God, what a shame.

Now we hurt those who come along the way.

Leaving a trail of victims that complain.

How we're too damaged and cannot be saved.

My life ain't where it's supposed to be I'm losing people

close to me didn't know cuts were supposed to bleed

What a lie that was sold to me And I'm standing by myself

Staring at the clouds Feeling hella dumb

yeah hurt people hurt people I've been hurt plenty hurt people hurt people and I've hurt many it does upset me life was unsteady hope they forgive me I can't keep spending my life with regret the way I was raised

f*ck with my head that's why i find it so hard to connect maybe that's why i left every ex i only dated women so i didn't feel lonely and ignore the fact that they had all their issues and i self-sabotage our future instead of acknowledging everything that i've been through no i forgive you i wasn't perfect

Cause we both came from a past.

Mine made me fearful.

Yours made you hurtful.

And that's why we didn't last.

So I numb the feeling by taking prescription.

But I numb the feeling by just sitting with them.

I'm wishing that there was a way I could rid them.

Cause this isn't hard like a two-clock collision.

This isn't me venting or looking for sympathy.

This is realizing I need to commit to me.

Cause if I don't, I'ma keep living miserably.

The feelings I'm feeling are crippling and...

My life ain't where it's supposed to be I'm losing people

close to me didn't know cuts were supposed to bleed

What a lie that was sold to me And I'm standing by myself

Staring at the clouds Feeling hella down