It's January 1 st 2021

And I'm in my feelings

And I just wanna rap

F**k a hook

Yeah

Why do I feel like I'm depressed

I feel like my whole life is a mother f**king stress

Sometimes I see the news and wish that I could die next

It's a crippling feeling that most could never digest

Every January 1 st I don't wanna wake up

That's the day I met this girl who totally f**ked me up

Mentally the PTSD's hurt and all of it sucks

It left a hole chest that money can't cover up

Was never enough I felt it deep in my bones

Always feeling disconnected always glued my phone

Tired of fakes friends

I cut them off so now I'm alone

They don't love me for me

They only love me 'cause I'm known

I got fans who support me and wanna see me win

But I feel like a loser

I'm a need a bottle of Gin

I made a million dollars but there's nothing to give

If there's God tell me where has he been

I been searching for real

Every new years I get in my feels

'Cause I hate the way that I f**king feel

I got scars that don't heal

It's a new year but it's the same pain in my heart

And that's a hurt that's gon' stick with me still

I wonder if real love is something that I can find

In a world full a fakes who keep wasting my time

I been questioning my faith

And I'm losing my mind

If God is real then show me sign