Ay yo, you know when ever you decide to make music your official career
You start to lose touch, with that person that decided to start doing music in the first place
Whenever you're worrying about deadlines, and what people think
Rather than if you like it, and if its going to make any money rather than if it makes you happy
But lately I've just rediscovered that joy I once had
Music gets me in my mood, and nothings gonna stop it
Now I can't quit smiling', know my teeth aren't flawless
I don't care about my shoes, I'm just grateful that I'm walkin'
Happy to be breathing' and I love the fact I'm talkin'
And you listen to my tunes, and I Ain't had a day like this
Since yesterday I pray I get the chance to say the way I feel
And every day I'm moved, its all part of my perception
Everyday that I'm alive I have realized is such a blessin'
It starts with attitude, happy and I know it
Keep closin' both of my eyes but I keep my heart wide open
Stayin' grounded, now, I'm astounded I keep growin
To the man my momma wanted and to think once I was hopeless
Now I'm focused on my future but I keep it level headed
It don't hurt to plan ahead but there's nothing like the present
We experience expression manifestin' in the essence
Of the spirit when you're near it you will feel the same connections
And I remember days, back before I had a bit of since
About responsibility or benefits of being rich
Pure tranquility and innocence
Lately I been visitin' those memories to reminisce
And take me back in hopes that I can take it back and play pretend
With all my friends again, before my elders got so sick
Before my parents got divorced, before my partner up and quit
Before my daddy got remarried and my step father had split
Psh, yeah I see the omens I just greet them with a grin
Heh, detach from all my drama know my karmas comic' thick
Rest in peace to Deven Trull look I miss you all the time
But it's all right, ay I know that you're my Angel in disguise
I'm eating' right
And I mean more than food, don't eat up the gossip
Either way I'm smilin', Know my teeth aren't flawless
I don't care about my shoes, I'm just grateful that I'm walkin'
Happy to be breathing' and I love the fact I'm talkin'
And you listen to my tunes
The past died two weeks ago, life is a river seek the flow, hm
The same particles that made the Sun, made your lungs, we need to glow
Your appetite is currency, pay attention to what you eat the most
Pain propels problems into proverbs when my Granny died
I read C. S. Lewis's "Grief Observed", through golden laced tears I read these words
No one ever told me that grief, felt so much like fear
But today is tomorrow, let the blessings rain
Scars are skeleton keys for wisdom accept the lessons gained
We are all always children looking for the temperament of hope
When you find it let it rain from the mountain top like an instruments note
The sheet music on your heart was penned in blessed brush strokes
A picture, of dams breaking like clouds with Sun rays pouring in your windowpane
Take it in, let the levies loose, It's time for something new
Let the levies loose before the crops choke
The pain our hearts contained are fertile foundations for growth
Mhm, let the levies loose, your tears are holy water
Baptize the world with your beautiful bruises begging other beautiful souls to belt their benedictions
But not for benefits or Benjamin's, beyond our broken we are hoping to help heal someone else's ills
So speak it, through your words let the levies loose
And we'll all exit hell like meditation mantras
But before you goodbye your breath, don't forget what your pain taught ya
