Been at this for a whole damn hour
Trying to find a way to get the money and the power
Everybody I knows got weed or got powder
But I ain't got either got a lot of demons
The room down the hallway where every single dream lived
Turned into a wall where I couldn't reach at all
Boxes of alcohol leaned up against the wall
Like statues she praised daily like gods
Her head would nod as she walked out the room
Where the blood left a stain on the pillow since June
Shaking in the middle of the night trying to stay asleep
But every time she takes a drink her eyelids start to blink
She starts to think
About the pain that's life causes
The gains the strain from life's fortunes
Drowning in a pool of regret
While losing life's light from her glimpse with each sip
Used to have a grip on vices but ran into a crisis
And now she pays the price for that shit
Guilt's eating her guts and she can't get a grip
All she could do is tap a brew and take a sip
She used to able to make sense of shit that ain't make sense
But now all she do is take sips
Up to the point she sips what you can't sip
The pain be to much to bare she can't drink shit
Damn
It's our fault
Heard the shot fired
Sounded like it was next to him when it sounded off
She skipped school to hang out with her boyfriend
Had some news for him that she knew would destroy him
Had a new boyfriend around the same age
Now the old man's removed out the new man's space
Old man's face turned cold gun raised
Bullet transmitted to the front of her brain
Bang
He said it was an accident
Probated five years her whole family cried tears
Most came to divide shares
Buy my sister's shit up and decide theirs
Felt like a bull runners nightmare
Just trying to hide fear behind all of his ideas
From seeing Vita right there
Yeah
But all things happen in a flash
Cause happiness in this life is never meant to last
