I was born in Carolina, near the paper mill

I learned the town was haunted, rebels had been killed

Somethin' grew up twisted in me, rippin' all the seams

But I was mended by the love of my mama

To fight the devils down in me

I left for Nashville with no money to my name

I sang on 17th like I was on a stage

The road that I took then was full of ditches and mistakes

And deep in the shadow of my failures

I saw some things are worth the pain

I wanna live like I'm only made of air

And I will forgive what I've done out of despair

I'm tryin' to find the happiness and healin'

And the thing, still need some repair

My marriage ended and I moved up north to mend

I tried to fight it like a needle in my skin

The hole inside me kept on growin', everything went black

Was then I heard the words of my father

"Have faith, there's no storm that doesn't pass"

I wanna live like I'm only made of air

And I will forgive what was done out of despair

I wish you only happiness and healin'

And I hope that you're findin' it out there

Yeah, ooh-ooh-ooh

I'll carry every life I've lived into the next

Maybe Saint Peter will just average all the best

But don't let me into Heaven 'til Goliath knows defeat

And when it's done, I'll slip into nirvana

And let go of everything that's holdin' me

Holdin' me