I hear you walk up the stairs

As I pretend not to care

The light was left on for a reason

I am reading myself a book

But really thinking of how you looked last September

When this is behind me and you are as well

I'll tell you a secret I'm scared of myself

Cause I still feel for you in the middle of the dark

I pull down the stars we hung above our Sylvan Park

I've lost all direction can you help me to steer

This first year is not a year

This first year is not a year without you here

There you stand in my mind

Changing clothes right before my eyes

All those angles in my expression

Why is it that when your gone

I want you here all on my own

More than ever cause our days are numbered

When this is behind me and you are as well

I'll tell you a secret I'm scared of myself

Cause I still feel for you in the middle of the dark

I pull down the stars we hung above our Sylvan Park

I've lost all direction can you help me to steer

Cause this first year is not a year

This first year is not a year without you here

I dreamt you were dying is it true is it true

I swear your not the dying kind

But if you were if you were

Would I still belong to you

I pull down the stars we hung above our Sylvan Park

I've lost all direction can you help me to steer

Cause this first year's not a year

This first year's not a year without you here