You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

I know you can't understand it

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

Abandoned

Getaway, you're suffocating my space

Go to your room and stay locked for a couple days

You mad but didn't you say you can't wait till I leave

I guess you'll finally be at peace when you're not with me

But that's fine I don't wanna be

With someone who makes me feel as if I did some type of thing

To deserve this, do I look too much like him

Cuz every time I look at you there's anger hovering

Look how f**d up this is

You tell me you will listen then interrupt with excuses

Just sit and hear me for once, matter fact Imma do it for us

Three out of six and you favored the three that was before us

You even called em up and when you looked toward us

You forced us to give you space, might as well have abortus

I don't care if you don't see me for days

So when I say what I say don't wonder why

Just know I was in pain

Yes I love you but I have no clue

How to move on cuz I always come back to

Memories that lack you, perhaps we were a distraction but I get it

We we're the last two

My feels are mixed up, but I feel its right to have this boundary between us

I don't need you to know much

Cuz everyone else will know and have their opinion

Then give advice as if they will devote much

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

I know you can't understand it

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

Abandoned

It's pretty crazy how she'll let herself be controlled

For a relationship with her mom she don't even know

And when it backfires she'll beat herself cuz she don't know

That she won't give a F**k so might as well leave the home

That stupid b**h don't understand she's desperate for her love

And she'll do anything to gain it, what a stupid f**k

I envy those whose mothers are by their side showing love

Support and all of the above for their babies love

Not throwing in our face the nine months they've held us

For what to hold it against us like they horror-struck?

It sucks knowing she's controlled so she'll give up

Cuz in the future she's under control from someone

That's why it's hard to trust em, can't even trust the homies

Maybe one day they'll turn on me like they did Capicchioni

F**k my whole mind up, and leave me with trust issues

Dirty tissues, mom issues, and back to being lonely

I try not to think about it too much, but when I think of her

All I think about all of the trust my mom lost

Now my dad gained most of the love I had for her

Cuz she neglected me as a pug

A young buck, grown up and I've made up my mind

I'm wonder if she'll leave her knowing it waisted time

Brainwashed, she needs her drain washed to be free of mind

Abandoned in every area, but she won't keep that in mind

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

I know you can't understand it

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned

Abandoned

There's no conclusion to the fights we have

No solutions for the nights to pass

Never knew my bitterness has sunken thru

Maybe cuz you've been wringing me like a rag

While trying to drain out all the memories that are dad's

If you hear this and you block me like you did black sheep

Imma be fine maybe better if the questions asked

I know you'll be sad and turn everyone against me

But I'll be glad till the pass comes to catch my ass

You prolly don't know but I felt abandoned