I should have died five years ago

A young man growing slow

Hole in my chest, I was bleeding out

I almost died my freshman year

Looking at some pictures and

I feel emotional

Thank God I am alive, right here

Darkness in my head

I, was trapped inside my bed

I probably should be dead

Thank God I ain't dead

I look at pictures of myself

I barely recognize myself

A young kid trapped inside of hell

I see pictures of myself

I thank God

I am so well

Oh Lord why did I have to go through so much?

My eyes, you'll see the strain

A never ending pain

Keep my blinds closed, don't let them see me

Stayed away from lunch, they felt no pity

Broke down in art class, alone I'm sitting

The one they thought they knew, had gone missing