First off let me say that I'm the biggest hypocrite
Know I be running games and you sick of it
Young n**a love hard but it got me running quick
'Cause I fear what's to come from the sum of this
She asks me why I never seem to spare her time
Hmm that's a loaded question but I got a confession yea
What if I'm chasing expectations that'll never be reached
What if I'm in front of a wall that has yet to be breached
What if the foundation rocky need something concrete
When I look at you I see the rose that had bloomed from the streets
What if I been underperforming 'cause I'm over my head
What if I been plotting reactions to the words you never said
Like I love you
Like what if my feelings don't equate
Or better yet what if you hit me talking bout you late
I tend to think about the man I'd be in the moment of truth
Got me reflecting on my time as a youth
Back to a time when all I cared about was finding myself
Maybe it ain't me failing you it's bout me failing myself
And every time you say my name you shake the paradigm
Choose you over a pair of dimes
Heart could never align with the logic in my mind
Yet our souls intertwine
Probably why we in this love bind
She asks me why I never spare her time
And why I never made her time to make her mine
She asks me why I never spare her time
Mmm well excuse me lil lady I been really thinking lately
And a nah I don't wanna go that deep
Probably shouldn't go that deep
Why you wanna go that deep
We should never go that deep
I don't wanna go that deep
I can't seem to get you out my mind
Probably shouldn't go that deep
I can't seem to love you like you'd like
Why you wanna go that deep
Part of me strays away
Part of me wanna give you mine
We should never go that deep
But I can't seem to no no
She said why it's like I'm sitting on a bench n**a
Got bitches swinging for your love and I'm the pinch hitter
We reach first base then you let the fear build up
That's when I feel the bass then I let the beat build up
I get lost in these songs and find you in every line
Imagine if I let you in how you'd control the mind
You sprinting towards the love but self love's a marathon
And I ain't got a hand on mine I'm just trying to heal the mind
Can you hear me
The heart grows fonder when you ain't near me
But Ima call your presence home when I'm ready
I just need you to allow me to figure who I am alone
And every time you say my name you shake the paradigm
Choose you over a pair of dimes
Heart could never align with the logic in my mind
Yet our souls intertwine
Probably why we in this love bind
She asks me why I never spare her time
And why I never made her time to make her mine
She asks me why I never spare her time
Mmm well excuse me lil lady I been really thinking lately
And a better question you could probably ask me is why I don't love me
Tell me how I'm supposed to love you if I don't love me
Yea I don't love me
Well excuse me lil lady
