Just spent a little time away

Contemplating everything

Pondered how my vices serve my life

Debating if I need them

See I'm no saint but I'm no bum

I just paint the inside of my cup and turn my mind into a brush

'till it flows like water

Saturating my veins

I don't bother staying all that sane

I just need a drank

I just need a smoke

I just need a girl but I don't need these h**s

I just need myself

I don't need no help

Stop texting my friends just to feel alone

Let that feeling grow 'till it turns to song

'till it fills the hole I made in my heart

Bleed

Bleeding out so good

Light headed as f**k

Soaking in this bathtub filled with emotion

Popping a red pill and breathing in

Breathe out and sinking in

I see it all vividly

It's so pretty and tragic

I cry on this fabric I've worn for 5 days straight

It's seen all my habits

I play my keys and I sing my songs

The crowd loves it give a round of a applause

Just spent a little time alone

Put my pieces in poem

Tore it all apart to make puzzle

Put it back together

See if I can find a better line

To describe the thoughts up in my mind

See what wisdom I can find

'till it comes together

See it on the page

Read the letters

Realize my fate

I can't fill my plate

Pile it up with love and sit down to sing

Only space for one

Only space for me

Find myself in greed

I want all the time for the things I seek

I just wanna be everything I can

Can't be losing limbs giving out my hand

Bleed

Bleeding out so good

Light headed as f**k

Sleeping by a figure that I had known once

Hit a few times before breathing in

Breathe out and sinking in

I feel it all vividly

It's so pretty and tragic

The marks on the fabric

The paintings we made on a canvas of plastic

Last nights been smeared by the next days sun

We both loved it what a shame that I'm gone