I remember promising myself I won't go back and forth no way
Life's a Rollercoaster, it is
I keep five thousand in 20s inside that brown paper bag
As a reminder I ain't never had jack
Still feel like how I felt, when I couldn't pay my rent
Got this guap on me, but the pain glued to me
Looking for my soul I'm so desperate
Looking for my soul, Lord I'm in need
Need something to hold I know
I don't even know Lord I'm just in need
Looking for my soul
Can't help but think, wonder what you meant when you said you love me undoubtedly
I already bought a ring, now I figured you gone stay
I can't act like you not everything to me baby
Keep my composure getting high as I can be baby
And I know you know it's hard for me to keep sane
Gotta pour up to try to maintain, keep the demons at bay
I already peaked, I'm the one in love with you
Not the other way
But I had the gun and you told me of all the things that you had to say
I'ma stack it to the ceiling, and buy my self a covertable now
I'ma act like I ain't dying inside that you be walking now
You the one that said f**k Patna en em, we gone work it out
I'm mad like I ain't believed in that shit they told me off
I done seen this rain in my mother's eyes
Her son became everything that she despise
That shit f**d me up, till this day I can't disguise it
Get high till I can't feel my heart
I keep five thousand in 20s inside that brown paper bag
As a reminder I ain't never had jack
Still feel like how I felt, when I couldn't pay my rent
Got this guap on me, but the pain glued to me
Looking for my soul I'm so desperate
Looking for my soul, Lord I'm in need
Need something to hold I know
I don't even know Lord I'm just in need
Looking for my soul I'm so desperate
Looking for my soul, Lord I'm in need
Need something to hold I know
I don't even know Lord I'm just sinning
Looking for my soul
I realize I only wanted the riches to prove a point
Got this little money and I can't seem to fill the void
I recognize I don't do this shit the its over for me
I left it all and they started treating me like they used to treat me
