i'm heavy handed a heavy heart
can't be found in the cavity of my chest
compounding weight on my regret
oh it's just gravity at best
i don't let you in but is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
it don't feel right no
but then again
i can't trust decisions made with my head
think i'm conditioned to just bury what i feel
instead it steals from a calculated darkness
though i'm hopeless i'm not holla side wanted you
but somehow i still went and did the opposite
and honestly i'm scared
of being seen and then discarded
so i silence my heart
and uproot all the things we started
in favor of this fear
disguised as comfort is ironic
cause it got me this far but it won't bring me farther
i've been running from these thoughts
running in circles
catch my breath and now the time is past
the moments that we spent
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
that don't feel right no
is there anything left
is there anything left
between you and i
only you in my bed how i get jaded
no you don't owe me anything you probably thinking
that you wasted all your time and energy on me
i don't blame you if you wanna just become strangers
transform this energy before it becomes dangerous
i wonder if you think about me i confess
and i'm sorry for my inconsistencies
these chemical imbalances
are cycles of a past life lesson plan
i've been tryna find my way back
take more instead of playing it safe
or playing games with our heads
i don't wanna be ashamed anymore
to open up release the pain
thinking i'll never be enough to be loved
i've been running from these thoughts
running in circles catch my breath
and i'm sorry for all of the mess
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
is there anything left
it don't feel right
is there anything left
la da da da
