I walked through the door with you the air was cold
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you've still got it in your drawer even now
Oh your sweet disposition and my wide- eyed gaze
We're singing in the car getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days
And I know it's long gone and
That magic's not here no more
And I might be okay but I'm not fine at all
Oh oh oh
'Cause there we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me
Wind in my hair I was there
I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin- sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee- ball team
You tell me 'bout your past thinking your future was me
And you were tossing me the car keys f**k the patriarchy
Keychain on the ground we were always skipping town
And I was thinking on the drive down
Anytime now he's gonna say it's love
You never called it what it was
Till we were dead and gone and buried
Check the pulse and come back swearing
It's the same after three months in the grave
And then you wonder where it went to
As I reached for you but all I felt was shame
And you held my lifeless frame
And I know it's long gone and
There was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs I was there
I remember it all too well
And there we are again when nobody had to know
You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath
Secret prayer and we'd swear
To remember it all too well
Maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'Til you tore it all up
Running scared I was there
I remember it all too well
And you call me up again
Just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all all all
They say " All's well that ends well"
But I'm in the new hell everytime
You drive across my mind
You said if we had been closer in age
Maybe it would've been fine
And that made me want to die
The idea you had of me who was she
An ever- needy ever- loving jewel whose shine reflects on you
Now I'm weeping in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me what happened
You that's what happened you
You who charmed my dad with self- effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you're on a late night show
But then he watched me watch the front door all night
Willing you to come
And he said it's supposed to be fun turning 21
Time won't fly it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
'Cause you remember it all too well yeah
'Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare I was there
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair you were there
You remember it all
Down the stairs you were there
You remember it all
It was rare I was there
I remember it all too well
And I was never good at telling jokes but the punchline goes
" I'll get older but your lovers stay my age"
From when you're Brooklyn broke my skin and bones
I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue
Just between us did the love affair maim you too
Cause in this city's baring cold
I still remember the first fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell I remember it all too well
Just between us did the love affair maim you all too well
Just between us do you remember it all too well
Just between us
Just between us
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair I was there I was there I was there
Down the stairs I was there I was there
Sacred prayer I was there I was there
It was rare you remember it all too well
Wind in my hair I was there I was there
Down the stairs I was there I was there I was there
Sacred prayer I was there I was there
It was rare you remember it all too well
Wind in my hair I was there I was there
Down the stairs I was there I was there
Sacred prayer I was there I was there
It was rare you remember it
Wind in my hair I was there I was there
Down the stairs I was there I was there
Sacred prayer I was there I was there
It was rare you remember it
