Wish I could tell you how I'm feeling

But I don't know

One day I'm high

The next I feel so low

I lose my mind

Just to gain some control

But end up crying on the bedroom floor

Proud of myself for reasons you'll never know

Fighting my battles sometimes on my own

Wish I could tell you but if I did

Uh oh if I did

If I did

They would be mad

If I told you the secrets that we have

They wouldn't understand my reasoning

For speaking through my silence

Break the peace

She attention seeks

But my lungs need air my body screams

Sometimes it feels like I'm just surviving

I'm losing sleep from nightmares I thought were gone

Drowning in coffee

Thought I could work it off

I'm late to class pretending nothing's wrong

But end up crying in a bathroom stall

Proud of myself for reasons you'll never know

Fighting my battles sometimes on my own

Wish I could tell you but if I did

Uh oh if I did

If I did

They would be mad

If I told you the secrets that we have

They wouldn't understand my reasoning

For speaking through my silence

Break the peace

She attention seeks

But my lungs need air my body screams

Sometimes it feels like I'm just surviving

One step forward

I can see the gold light

Calling, closer

Telling me it's alright

To hate this hurting

Cus somewhere here I'm learning to speak up

They might be mad

If I told you the secrets that we have

They wouldn't understand my reasoning

For speaking through my silence

Break the peace

She attention seeks

But my lungs need air my body screams

Sometimes it feels like I'm just surviving