I've never told anyone and I'm terrified

But if I don't count to six right now I might die

I don't know what's wrong with me

But it wants to ruin my life

Ruin my life

Ruin my life

I just spend my days thinking

Ruminating

I know that this can't be healthy

But it's my safety

Hide my face and hide away

I don't want you to see

I don't believe in god

And I don't believe in anything

But my brain keeps telling me that everything means everything

Nothing's fucking real

But I keep doing it anyway

Because I might die if I don't shut my lights off correctly

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die