Well, anyway...
This is therefore to say,
Transformation of human consciousness through meditation.
is frustrated.
So long as we think of it in terms of something
that I myself can bring about by some kind of wangle, by some sort of gimmick.
Because, you see, that leads to endless games of spiritual one-upmanship.
and of guru competitions.
of my guru is more effective than your guru.
My yogas are faster than your yoga.
I'm more aware of myself than you are.
I'm humbler than you are.
I'm sorrier for my sins than you are.
I love you more than you love me.
There are these interminable goings-on about which people fight and wonder whether they are a little bit more evolved than somebody else and so on.
All that can just fall away.
And then we get this strange feeling
that we have never had, you see, in our lives except occasionally by accident.
some people get a glimpse, that we are no longer
This poor little stranger and afraid in a world it never made.
but that you are this universe.
and you are creating it at every moment.
Because, you see, it starts now.
It didn't begin in the past.
There was no past.
See, if the universe began in the past, when that happened it was now.
See?
Well, it's still now.
And the universe is still beginning now and it's trailing off like the wake of a ship from now.
In the wake of the ship fades out, so does the past.
You can look back there to explain things, but the explanation disappears.
You'll never find it there.
Things are not explained by the past.
They're explained by what happens now.
Cheer up.
You can't blame anyone else.
for the kind of world you're in.
And if you know, you see that I, in the sense of the person,
the front, the ego, it really doesn't exist.
Then it won't go to your head too badly if you wake up and discover that you're God.
That's the birth of responsibility.
Because otherwise, you can always look over your shoulder and say, well, I'm the way I am because my mother dropped me.
And she dropped me because she was neurotic because her mother dropped her.
Away we go back to Adam and Eve or
to a disappearing monkey or something.
We never get at it.
