[Verse 1]

I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere

But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared

And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common

But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care

[Pre-Chorus]

You said it looks like I've been going through hell

How did you know? How could you tell?

Ask me to explain myself, well

[Chorus]

I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

Nobody said changing would be this exhausting

A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick

How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

[Verse 2]

Don't wanna say it but I really think that I miss him

It might seem stupid but I still look through all of our texts

Who knew that wanting someonе could ever make mе this desperate

Don't think I'll do that again, no

[Pre-Chorus]

You said it looks like I've been going through hell

How did you know? How could you tell?

You ask me to explain myself, well

[Chorus]

I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

Nobody said changing would be this exhausting

A foot on the break 'cause it's been making me carsick

How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

[Bridge]

And maybe I'm just blowing all this s**t up in my head

But I can't help it, no, I can't help it

Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again

Goddamn I felt it, I really felt it

Maybe I'm just blowing all this s**t up in my head

But I can't help it, no, I can't help it

Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget

But damn I felt it

[Outro]

I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

Nobody said changing could be this exhausting

A foot on the break 'cause it's making me carsick

How could you blame me?