Promise I'm fine when I'm not

See my minds spinning round and around with my thoughts

I'm a pot with no lid and the water is bubbling

Bout to boil over the temperatures doubling

Siren alarm in the night

And I can't stop the noise

Cos I swear there's a fire somewhere

I can't see it or hear it or smell it or taste it

But what if I'm not prepared how will I face it

If I could calm myself down

Just breath in and breath out

Take a second

Let go of control

Then my mind could be free

But what if i drop the ball for just a moment

Who would pick it up, a friend or an opponent

Can't I just calm down

Stop the sound

Take a breath and just relax

But sometimes

I'm afraid of quiet

And what that would mean

Cry a lot, fill a room with my tears

I'm like Alice, except I'm the only mad one here

Wish I could face what is coming

But i keep on running I'm chasing the bunny

Did I wake you, my noise was too loud,

I'm sorry next time I'll turn my grief down

If my turmoil troubles you I can just leave and I'll cry in another room

I swear that I'm in control

Or at least I will be

Working on

Regulation

Affirmation

And therapy

Breath control

Become a better me

Can't I just calm down

Stop the sound

Take a breath and just relax

But sometimes

I'm afraid of quiet

And what that would mean

Tossing and turning

The suns in the sky

It's 5am

I can't close my eyes

Want to turn off

Just have some peace

White noise is here

And I can't sleep

Tossing and turning

The suns in the sky

It's 5am

I can't close my eyes

Want to turn off

Just have some peace

White noise is here

And I can't sleep

Tossing and turning

The suns in the sky

It's 5am

I can't close my eyes

Want to turn off

Just have some peace

White noise is here

And I can't sleep

I swear that I'm in control or least I will be

I am ruler of my mind and it will bow

To me!

To me!

But sometimes

I'm afraid of quiet and what that would-