Aye
All day long
I been in my mind
Dig myself a grave
Cause that might be the only way
I can't think straight
I'm alone with my thoughts (my thoughts)
Who would of knew
That I would be my biggest enemy (enemy)
I heard liquor drowns the pain
I still don't know though
Cause I try to stay away
But it's to a point
I can't figure myself out
No one to vent to (yuh)
No one to talk to (woah)
Just all these snotty tissues (tissues)
My mind is a warzone
And I'm caught in the crossfire
I'm my own biggest liar
Trying to tell myself
Not to worry
18 years on this planet
And my mind is so blurry
Nothing I can do
By age 30 (age 30)
I just want to be able to
control my thoughts
Be able to
Put them on pause
Cause I just can't
Keep dealing with these long days
All these long days
When can my pain be taken away
Uh
All the time I spent on you
But you keep a hand on me
Uh, uh
All day long
All the time I spent on you
On you
Okay
All the time I spent on you
Aye
It's the next day
And I'm still feeling like
A grave is the only way
But I can't do that
Cause they say time heals
So when am I gonna be healed
When is my pain gonna be sealed
Locked away
Where it can decay
Instead of my fate
Before it's too late
And these voices
Start to say
That I'm not enough
Yeah I'm not enough
Talking to myself
Yeah
Maybe I'm just not enough (woah)
I be going back and fourth in my head
All the things I should've said
I regret and I dread
Wish all my thoughts fled
Out of my mind
Out of my sight
So I can apply
My pressure
And put my demons on a stretcher (on a stretcher)
I promise I'm not being extra
I'm a big flexer
Not a amateur
I damage per usual
And it's looking so beautiful
That it's so meaningful
So why am I so fearful
