I fade into the background in my own life

I don't feel sad I guess, at least, I know I don't cry

I can read intentions, and I find it hard to show mine

Maybe superhuman, but not super when I'm so blind

Always so ahead of me, and I can't even read the room

Talking in a melody, when I can't even speak in tune

All I know is jealousy, and I just want to see the truth

'Cause no one ever taught me all the social rules and secret cues

Even when we're special, there's a part that's always missing

Wish that I could listen, knowing that my life is still unwritten

But I'm searching for a purpose, and my reason for existence

I know world is full of lies, will address it for its wisdom

I'm not perfect, but I know that, I should never lose control

We're all just slaves to our emotions

And all the struggles that we hold

And I've been silencing my words, I don't want others getting hurt

But I keep feeling like I'm spilling out the cookie cutter mold

Another member of the Mob, but also always sticking out

I keep the fire on the hob because I'll never simmer down

I always felt like I was lost, was all the others figured out

But now I know I'm not alone, so I don't ever need to live in doubt

Take a breath and it's alright

We can fight in the darkest times

Be yourself and it's alright

And your life is what you decide

The light we hide can never fade, given time we'll find a way

I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be OK

Through the night I count the days, rather die than lie awake

I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be OK

One day I'll open up, but for now I keep it internal

All up in my mind like they got me running in circles

Always stay inside in my shell like I was a turtle

Just afraid of what's ahead, I'll be fine when I make the hurdles

What a socialize with others, I need a better rehearsal

What's even a point when I struggle of being verbal

The worst that it can heard of it more I keep in my journal

I don't need another ears to hear my heart turning purple

Wish this was forever, I wish we could be immortal

Talking with using different words like I walk through a cord

So it's an eye I'm treating, I'm staying true to my morals

And never can count the days that I wish I could just be normal

Look, I'm sorry that I'm different than how you want me to be

Always at my throat, they still expect me to breathe

Had a different low that you wouldn't f*****g believe

But I never care what you think, look, I'm better when doing me

Take a breath and it's alright

We can fight in the darkest times

And I know what this is like

No matter if it's difficult, you always had to try

Be yourself and it's alright

And your life is what you decide

And we don't ever need to hide

Keep on learning to be happy with the person that's inside

A lie we hide can never fade, given time we'll find a way

I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be OK

Through the night I count the days, rather die than lie awake

I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be OK

Woah

I will be OK