I've dealt with worse than you, I've felt what it's like to lose
I'm not scared of what's out there, I've seen the worst in my nightmares
Can't escape hell, twenty -three years in this jail cell
No bail help, I've prayed, yelled, but remain stuck like a hangnail
Walking on eggshells, fuck every day I just take L's
My whole life's been a nightmare, where every day feels like a light year
So, remember me, PTSD, the memories
Mentally there's no coming back, from hell I'm trapped like Alcatraz in a penitentiary
Take your pick, life's a game or life's a bitch
But it don't matter to the referee, when death is the only penalty
So rest in peace
I've dealt with worse than you, I've felt what it's like to lose
I'm not scared of what's out there, I've seen the worst in my nightmares
Look at all the times, all the nights that intensified
Every day that I spent inside, barely getting by
Used to lay in my bed and cry, a pathetic guy
Now I chill, so I pop pills, how many times till I'm getting high?
Suicide, it's been on my mind, yeah I wanna die
But I don't wanna make my mama cry, so I try to hide it, I tell a lie
I scream and yell that I don't need help, I said I'm fine
But then inside, all my life, I live petrified
Left paralyzed by anxiety and depressing times
All my life, all my life, I pray to God, pray to God
I go way up high, far away from that city of fire
Darker days, even darker nights, from flames I rise
Days are getting long and the nights are getting cold
So I pray to God that the devil is never taking my soul
Yeah, the days are getting longer, nights are getting colder
I've seen the worst in my nightmares
Yeah, I've seen it all, all the lows, mountaintops that I wear by
All the peaks that I'll never reach, the few mountains I could never climb
There wasn't time, mortal men, born again, so we pray to God
And pray the Lord our soul to keep, there comes a day when we land right
I can't rise from the bottom, why would I bother when you're so depressed
That you can't even get out of bed, if I'm being honest
I'd rather be dead than alive
Sometimes I scream at the sky, yelling I don't want it
All my life, all my life, I defiled them eyes
When them doctors told me I was gonna die
I crawled out of bed, then rose, I rose to the sky
Why, I don't know why, I don't know why, someone give me a sign
All the times that I fell, all the pain that I felt
How the fuck I'm alive, when every night was like hell
But all I ever did was try, fuck am I losing my mind
Not even closing my eyes, too many nightmares inside
But I've dealt with worse than you
I felt what it's like to lose, but don't get it confused
Even when I'm on the ground and I'm down for the count
I'll fight back up and I'll knock you out
Cause it's been one hell of a ride, god
I've been through fire, I went through the flames every night
But I rose to the top, that's from the flames I will rise
I've dealt with worse than you
I felt what it's like to lose
I'm not scared of what's out there
I've seen the worst in my nightmares
I've dealt with worse than you
I felt what it's like to lose
I'm not scared of what's out there
I've seen the worst in my nightmares
I've dealt with worse than you
