i walked by that old cafe

the one we used to go to

i won't lie you should've seen my face

i thought i saw you

my mind was in denial

but now i wanna talk

oh why i guess i'm missing you more than i thought

wish that i wasn't so guarded

is it too late to be honest

'cause if you only knew knew i was drowning

dancing around the ugly truth

i'm not blaming you

cause i had my demons

you just didn't see them like i do

if i could go back and change one thing

wouldn't have buried my secrets

i'd write you a letter about everything

holding my breath while you read it

if you only knew

i might still have you

been through steps

one and two of grief i'm going through it

are you so bargaining like me

then feeling stupid bout the shut ups

the could ups

the what ifs the what ifs the maybes

it's hard to accept that it could have been amazing

'cause if you only knew knew i was drowning

dancing around the ugly truth

i'm not blaming you

cause i had my demons

you just didn't see them like i do

if i could go back and change one thing

wouldn't have buried my secrets

i'd write you a letter about everything

holding my breath while you read it

if you only knew

i might still have you

if you only knew knew i was drowning

dancing around the ugly truth

i'm not blaming you cause i had my demons

you just didn't see them like i do

if i could go back and change one thing

wouldn't have buried my secrets

i'd write you a letter about everything

holding my breath are you free

if you only knew i might still have you

if you only knew i might still have you