I don't talk about my life much.

I don't bring it up.

Guess this is the time to start fessing up.

My mom said I'm the head and not the tail and that's what God spoke.

But it's hard to believe as a kid when you're the butt of every single joke.

Cause I got more songs in my catalogue than friends I depend on.

And it's easy to see through fake people when you grew up being picked on.

I was never super smart like Sean or had a cannon arm like John or put on that killing

mentality to be a player playing like Ron.

Cause the very same people that you tell your business be the very same people hoping that

your dreams diminish.

Just crabs in a bucket telling you that there's nothing above it treating you like a puppet

even though you don't love it changing the subject so you don't make noise like a trumpet.

But I never really celebrate my birthday much cause I often regret looking back at my past

and things I haven't accomplished yet.

And instead of being grateful I'm alive and not dead.

So often I'm so confused with things going on in my head I just I don't know what to

do.

All these thoughts in my head am I really living or just a walking dead fulfilling my

purpose or believing a lie.

Tying to live or just wasting my time.

Well I don't know.

I don't know no more.

I don't know no more.

Man it's hard to believe in people when I can't even trust myself.

I don't know.

I don't know no more.

I don't know no more.

Man I'm trying to live my life but they want me to be like someone else.

In school I got picked last while others went first.

I was stepped on because I didn't curse so I hit reverse.

Started putting these haters in checks but they gave me these rhymes so I got the respect.

Just needed to flex throwing them hands in the fights so I was just seen as a threat.

Never just thrown in the friend zone.

Oh no.

Labeled us the nice guy.

Oh my.

Never hit me up until someone needed the answer for number 25.

It's so obvious I was trying to please others to build my confidence.

But confidence in others only leads to your consequence.

Looking at others saying they're arrogant judging they sin when mine is just prevalent.

I ain't just good at hiding the evidence comparing our sins without the right measurements.

And yes I've got two parents but at times I choose not to call them because at times

I choose not to recognize all of my problems.

And yeah I'm not gonna lie.

I used to blame God but despite my flaws he uses me.

Ain't that odd?

And if that's the case then why do we complain?

About our past and our struggles when it just proves that he reigns.

I just I don't know what to do.

All these thoughts in my head.

Am I really living or just walking dead fulfilling my purpose or believing a lie.

Dying to live or just wasting my time.

Well I don't know.

I don't know no more.

I don't know no more.

Man it's hard to believe in people when I can't even trust myself.

I don't know.

I don't know no more.

I don't know no more.

Man I'm trying to live my life but they want me to be like someone else.