One creature I return to
One habit I neglect
I cannot slow the pace at which I yearn
Frank and unabashed I become a frozen servant
Smiling asking nothing in return
Fang toothed woman foaming at the mouth as she addressed me
Not with moving lips but with the rabid wild
Arresting words not yet intended to identify emotion scrawling bold
And oblique in my head
I've hung out at your service jobs
I've watched you wait and be ignored
Blend into the back ground as they sipped at what you poured
I cling to your perimeter as you float in their margins oblivious
To being stung their satelite becomes my sun
And I've flown into that trap before
When things have gotten dark
In the depths of stangers' glances lies the most ferocious spark
Most freedom is deceiving
If such a thing exists
When I was young I knew but didn't care
Faces change in shape but represent the same old beast
I want to flee but I can only stare
It's the sound a captured heart makes as it sizzles into vapor
The tidal hum of fondness like a spike wave oscillator
The rabid uv grin that beckons me into approaching
Grasping as it recedes into space
Who greets my first when I arise
Who creeps into my half shut eyes
It's in the blaze of your embrace where I feel more real
And alive the bossom of 1000 watts into my skin
Into my guts
Running circles in my plot
Howling like a teathered mutt that broke free for the first time
So proud till he got caught
In his brief emancipation he can feel what I cannot
There is a patch of light that hits the floor I'll often occupy
Stretch my arms and legs and close my eyes
I now can hear my pulse alone
This manic pace I cannot slow
I do not miss the child you stole frying and abiding
I'm in your control like
A sunbathing animal
