Yeah
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should
Say this f**k I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase
I just wanna feel okay yeah
I battle with depression but the question still remains
Is this post- traumatic stressin'
Or am I suppressing rage
And my doctor tries to tell me that
I'm going through a phase
Yeah it's not a f**king phase
I just wanna feel okay okay
Yeah I struggle with this bulls**t everyday
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non- believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere
Like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down
Is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself
I try to keep a steady pace
How the f**k will I escape
If I never close my case
Oh my God I keep on stressin' every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah it's not a f**king stage
I just wanna feel okay okay
Motherf**ker now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin'
And what if I were to lie tell you everything is fine
Every single f**king day
I get closer to the grave
I am terrified I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non- believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular f**king monster
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a God that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Where the f**k is your God now
'Cause I'm about to break down searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non- believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular monster
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non- believer
I'm a popular popular monster
