Spent the winter pretending I'm okay And I love a sinner, cause we look the other
way But I've been growing under, pretending that
I'm okay I'm a girl of thunder, wishing all the world
away Like wine with dinner, I talk but I don't
say How I've been feeling, how I've been feeling
about all of these feelings Oh, do you want me now?
How I've been feeling, pretending I'm dealing with all that I ain't
feeling Oh, do you want me out?
Was it easy deciding you're not mine?
Do you feel me?
Do I ever cross your mind?
And I hate that you affect the way I feel at all
I don't deserve to find my footing just to fall in
Wine with dinner, I talk but I don't say How I've been feeling, how I've been feeling
about all of these feelings Oh, do you want me now?
How I've been feeling, pretending I'm dealing with all that I ain't feeling
Oh, do you want me out?
Now voice, I don't need you to crack Not telling what you might say that I can't
take back And I don't think I can open up that door
I'm afraid to give a voice to what I'm wanting for
So I don't, or I can't, or I won't But it's like I'm going crazy
Thinking about how I've been feeling, how I've been feeling about all of these feelings
Oh, do you want me now?
How I've been feeling, pretending I'm dealing with all that I ain't feeling
Oh, do you want me out?