i tried a thousand times but i can't read

just how many times must i repeat these days

even if i reach it things will not change

if i grasp as the mirage it slips and fades

i know already

i can't let it go on like this no

i lost a part of me that often acted like my ideal self

oh where did it all go

i know already

if it stays like this then i'm done for

and simply going round in circles

as i'm stuck in this downpour

how long have i been living in this life

i turn my back on

that existence of all that seems like a rainbow

look in the mirror i see no reflection

at the moment i see what is happening

i'm alone again

now i know that i've been fierce

by the past form of myself

who told himself lies

things i hate about myself are multiplied

i know already

all these words are mine and mine alone

it's just that i've been floating

smoke by the remains of the corpses

it's like i lost all hope

i knew already

it's my destiny so i must go

i am the only one who's meant to

cross the sky full of rainbows

i see that all of this time

i've been chasing a future created by myself

and yet i blame it on someone else again

i know already

i can't let it go on like this no

should i trust in the future self that i discover

with my eyes who will i ever know

i know already it's my destiny

so i must go

the future's waiting for me

on the other side of the rainbow