I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they might just leave me

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they just might

Getting ahead of myself, getting so close to the edge

Feeling like I'm gonna fall, trying to look over the ledge

My vision is blurred at this point, my body is sore, all my muscles and joints

Drowning in self deprecation, I'm using my scorn as a wedge

They don't wanna hear a rapper who ain't confident

But as I stand here I can't help but feel the opposite

To this day I live my life as an apologist

If I was anything but awkward that'd be fraudulent

Common sense, I been working harder to be dominant

But when I'm growling, they can see that I am harmless

I try to sound like them, like a homonym

These dudes are alpha dogs, I know I don't bark like them

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they might just leave me

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they just might

Feeling like a broken record, when I talk about my feelings

Feeling like broken man, so this is how work on healing

Every time I lose my temper, I can't stop myself from reeling

All these voices in my head get loud and I can't help believing

Them, that I don't got achievements thats worth talking bout

That it's harder to stay calm so I just scream and shout

I don't need to hit the gym I'll just stay in the house

And I don't need no working hard, I know there's a work around

When in doubt, I been know to hide myself away for a moment

I been know to distance myself from my family and homies

I get scared, cause I know that without this I'll be hopeless

So when I'm rapping for my life, I make my fears my opponent

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they might just leave me

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they just might

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they might just leave me

I can't cry, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't lie, I'm afraid someone believes me

I can't try, I'm afraid someone could see me

I can't rely, I'm afraid they just might