How can you go from wanting me to just nothing

Have like 40 reasons why I just don't do trusting

Wishing you missed me, I'm not adjusting

Walking round disassociating you know I'm not fronting

Looking in the mirror I can't recognize

I can't face the fact that you're just desensitized

Say it with my chest I think I can see through your lies

Don't know why I always have to empathize

It's a cycle

I can't stop

Or fight it

I'm a flop

Why me

I don't know

Driving me insane

How can you go from wanting me to just nothing

Have like 40 reasons why I just don't do trusting

Wishing you missed me, I'm not adjusting

Walking round disassociating you know I'm not fronting

I know I can do better than you

Why can't I think of someone new

Pushing away those that care

You were never there

You made me feel like I had purpose

But now I feel useless

All this time still I feel worthless

This is a daily occurrence

All my problems, pretending they're solved

You were toxic, still was involved

I doubt you know everything that you caused