A lotta reasons why I'm hardly speaking to a lotta people
I was out the side of all of it and barely got to check
Mind racing 'bout a mile a sec and I ain't stop it yet
People talking toxic, I don't know who tryna drop me next
Felt a lot of death, that's why I'm easily the kind that's left
Feeling like I'm stuck in solitude if you ain't seen with me
Knowing they don't want a lot to do just so they be with me
Never answer when I'm calling you to make me see these things
And you don't need to be beside, not to pressure you
Always taught that people go and lie to get the best of you
Stressing you to go outside when they try testing you
Break you down 'til you die, just to use the rest of you
Keep your head up
Two wrongs never make a right
The space you call home be the place you die
Know you feel alone, try to stay alive
Barely do this on my own, I'mma pray tonight
Talk to me like I ain't seen enough
You don't bleed enough, I'm too vocal with my dreams and such
Asking if I could just slow it down, I'm being me too much
I was painting pictures I envision just from thinking up
Read the print and touch a check, spend a little, up the rest
Heart pounding from the stress, trying not to
Tryna figure how to cut them hours of me all alone
Proud of what I been surrounded by just for a couple sets
Until they call my phone, chilling in my throne
I been sitting for a minute, man the king is waiting
For his zone, when I'm saying that I'm fine, I been lying
When y'all say I'm overconfident, I'm feeling really low though
I do everything I can, for the sake of fam
Gave you what I could and you never will think of me when making plans
I was seven being shaped a man, and you never gave a hand
You ain't help me run the streams and you ain't help me make a band
Further than just one of us, demons what I'm running from
Don't you speak up on it, you ain't been to where I'm coming from
I don't have no secrets, heart open, broken from the sleeveless
Type of way I wear my feelings, say it's love and never mean it
Keep your head up
Two wrongs never make a right
The space you call home be the place you die
Know you feel alone, try to stay alive
Barely do this on my own, I'mma pray tonight
Repetition, I sit in the middle of these four corners
Forewarning, more than moments that wore on us
War coming any minute, I don't feel safe anymore
Feel my taste just ain't the way to take the cake anymore
Every mirror make me hate me some more
Every melody I sing is me just breaking the core
My patience is off, my brain is in store
I hate they really think I'm living different
So them thoughts is what I didn't face any more
'Cause we don't call just to get 'em down
Hard to get in touch when he don't answer and ain't been around
Thought that he was done until I seen him do that spin around
Gotta see him now before he's big and trip on all me for it
I don't wanna see him on the sideshow
I fly past when they drive slow
You ain't there for me when I got low
Then you won't be when I got dough
Leave them all up in the dust though
Industry a little cutthroat
Promise y'all ain't finna touch those
I can see it when you bluff bro
Point at me like I been bad
Make it something it's not though
Wonder why you tryna live fast
Did dirty then die slow
Say you hate that I did that
Well I hate you alive though
You ain't never work for no big bag
You big mad at the grind though
I'm feeling different
All this trouble, you still addicted
All this talk like you really real
And you ain't even really dealing with it
On the mental I'm illy with it
You ain't get it, that's
Tired of stick and living with it
Every sentence isn't sentimental
Keep your head up
Two wrongs never make a right
The space you call home be the place you die
Know you feel alone, try to stay alive
Barely do this on my own, I'mma pray tonight
And I can't even say it, think I need antidepressants
My mind isn't helping, the damage is dealt and
You only sound selfish the second you telling someone else to suck it up
Looking at these hands like I can't wait to plan to
See 'em
And I'm a man so I'mma double up
Handling myself and can't nobody tell me nothing once
I start thinking how they'll function without me
Then care less when I remember what they mumble about me