I saw you yesterday, I didn't even say hi

I know you don't deserve that, but I couldn't find the words

I let them out in my best friend's car

Just callin' you things that I know you aren't

A gaslighter, a fake-ass crier, and stupid

An impostor, but I'm a liar, 'cause the truth is

I don't wanna let you go

Holdin' on to threads of hope

I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore

Sorry that I've been so cold

Maybe it was all my fault

I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you close

Oh, I'm covered in tears in this parkin' lot

Holdin' this grudge 'cause it's all I've got

Four years and so many bad fights

Blackouts and little white lies

It's easier to look back and leave

But all the good nights

Said goodbye in your parents' yard

Was callin' you things that I know you are

And you're a player, manipulator

But the truth is

I don't wanna let you go

Holdin' on to threads of hope

I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore

Sorry that I've been so cold

Maybe it was all my fault

I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you close

Oh, I'm covered in tears in this parkin' lot

Holdin' this grudge 'cause it's all I've got

I had your Friday midnights

Kissin' in blurry headlights

Had your heavenly shoulder to cry on

In the back of the taxi sayin' take me home

Now I'm left on my own

And you took it all, your perfect body

And all of your clothes at the door

While you left me with nothin' but blood on my hands

And nothin' to hold

But I don't wanna let you go

Holdin' on to threads of hope

I'd rather hate you if I don't get to have you anymore

I'm sorry that I've been so cold

Maybe it was all my fault

I had to make you the enemy so I can keep you close

Covered in tears in this parkin' lot

Holdin' this grudge 'cause it's all I've got