When I was 17
My only dream was cashin' the checks
Sick of collect calls and withdrawals
Was a 'cause and effect
'Til mom interjects
Sorry boo your father's calling you
To follow up to say he never follows through
What a mess
Smoke a bowl and say
What's goin' on
Callin' from a burner phone
I know he goin' through it
I can tell because his tone is off
Asks me how is college
Prolly get your masters
Instead of owning your masters
You gon' waste your knowledge
If you don't act fast
Ungrateful bastard you need to take
Action to get back to your classes
Opportunities pass and everything
In moderation and duе time
You'll do fine
He still havin' mood swings off thе moonshine
I rather pay my dues in music movies fashion
Instead of stolen Buick's and hoopty crashin'
In fact I ain't been to church in a minute
The hourglass been tickin'
I been trippin' off the shroomies and acid
Lackin' the vision
The head on collision with myself though
And reflecting on all this s**t I planned out
You would never hear
A seed push through the ground
Told told
You would never hear
A seed push through the ground
I wish I told you I hate you for leaving
But that would mean I used to love you
How could I give love to a person
That only gave me trouble
'Course you gave me life and supported me for a stretch
Even fought for me in the courts
When you knew you wasn't the best
But at best we'll make amends
And at sixty you'll be my friend
'Cause this spot of father's been taken
Since before my mama's death
I give portions of me
What's left
Liquor poured
Like it's a test
I am more than what you named me I'm sorry
Damor been dead since the day
I came to realize that you ain't
Never got your s**t together
I f**kin' hope I get my s**t together
Disgusted with the semblance
That we share feelings mixed together
Life has been a b***h but
We still left up in this b***h together
Mom would want it that's after
All the nonsense and violence you put her through
'Cause she was motherf**king awesome
Otherwise these feelings wouldn't be talking
I'm trying love and acceptance so pick it up when I call
Vegas
Oh oh
You would never hear
A seed push through the ground
Oh oh
You would never hear
A seed push through the ground
Ayy yeah ayy
Lost a lot of light and couldn't find me that bright side
My life's a struggle when every day movin' down
But I been stuck on why she claim I'm her lifeline
I never know what I should do
So I'ma go and pour a drink for this call
Watching the walls
When everything in moderation slips and it falls
Dipped and involved
She say she facing 21 but didn't do it
That's about the time it took to notice me
So what you doin'
I got missed calls missed texts
I ain't appreciate it
Got me smokin' lonely inebriated
I had to go and beat the betas
Mind becoming alpha
I only smoke for that nostalgia
And the reasons to live are getting stronger for me
I tried to smoke a little less
The days were longer for me
Never knew if I could make it
Out the gutter I did that
A couple broken memories
I'm never gon' miss that
Real change
It always sounds so quiet
You would never hear a seed push through the ground
Real change it always sounds so quiet
You would never hear a seed push through the ground
Real change
It always sounds so quiet
Ohh
You would never hear a seed push through the ground
