Composer : Alexander Stewart/Rollo/Adam Yaron

I've been tryin' so hard to survive

Sometimes I think that I wanna die

I feel so ****ing guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life

So I keep all the pain to myself

Losin' faith but nobody can tell

Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me

So I pretend I'm fine

If you only knew

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

If you only knew

All the s**t my brain is puttin' me through

You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

I'm sorry but I need you

If you only knew

I wish I was somebody else

I'm constantly overwhelmed

Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends

It's a silent cry for help

I wanna get better, I want you to know

That I can't do this on my own

If you only knew

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

If you only knew

All the s**t my brain is puttin' me through

You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

I'm sorry but I need you

Take me out of this hell

Oh, somebody help

Take me out of this hell

Oh, I'm not myself

I wanna tell you

What my mind is tellin' me I should do

That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

I'm too sad to cry but I want to

Oh, if you only knew