It's been a couple of months now
It's tough for me to let go of this
I shouldn't be hurt in this pain
Should be over with
I can't remember ever feeling this
So I'm just caught up in depression
Man I gotta get over this
I know I should be out with my brothers
Get in my mind, down for her
But it's like I'd rather suffer
Cause I'm home alone
Lookin' at all the pictures
And this makin' me feel worse
I really miss her
All my friend tell me to forget it
They try to take me out
Cause they want me to feel better
But nah
I'd rather stay home reading the letters
That she wrote to me when we were together
Why do I still dwell on the past
It's like I must enjoy feeling this bad
Cause when the wound in my heart starts healing
The stabbing pick at it
I gotta stop peeling the scab
Someone save me
The more I think about it
I feel like I'm crazy
I wanna allow myself to heal
Feels like I'm fading
And every time I held your hand
All the memories we had
I just can't stop peeling back the scab
Never tried to disguise the pain
I keep my feelings bottled up inside contain
But no matter what, I can't hide the strength
People notice cause they can see it
In my eyes, I'm drained
I walk around lookin' so stressed and grotesque
Unshaved and bags under my eyes
From no rest
I stay up all night thinking about her
In my bedroom, weeping for hours
It's killing me
All I do is toss and turn
While I'm laying down
Thinking 'bout all the good times
And how we played around
But what hurts more that the memory
On my dream
I tried to stay awake
Cause it's all been in me
It's so unfair
I dreamed that we're back together
Then I wake up and no one's there
Why
This woman never healing the sad
The more I think about it
The more I'm peeling my scab
Someone save me
The more I think about it
I feel like I'm crazy
I wanna allow myself to heal
Feels like I'm fading
And every time I held your hand
All the memories we had
I just can't stop peeling back the scab
They said don't need talking with the broken heart
Well if that's true
Tell me why hasn't time come to my rescue
I walk around like a depressed fool
Was like there're more day
Time passes the more I get stressful
I tortured to myself with all these songs
I'm reminded of her when I'm putting
Alicia Keys on
I wish I could man up and be strong
But it's still hasn't registered in my brain
That she's gone
When I'm home alone, I start stressin' up
I pick up my phone then I start texting up
The voice in my head tells me
Put the phone down
You'll make it worse
You gotta leave her alone now
It's the door that's closed
You shouldn't open it
You're not meant to be
Move on and get focused
And at first I listened
But as I put it down
I make a reversed decision and pressed send
Someone save me
The more I think about it
I feel like I'm crazy
I wanna allow myself to heal
Feels like I'm fading
And every time I held your hand
All the memories we had
I just can't stop peeling back the scab
Stop peeling back the scab
Stop peeling back the scab
I feel like I'm crazy
Stop peeling back the scab
How much longer will I last
If I keep peeling back the scab
If I keep peeling back the scab