Adelso on this

You one of the reasons why I strive to be better

Thinking if I was better then maybe we'd be together

But I know that's false

I've been out here looking for the love that we lost

Hoping one day I might find it once I fix all of my flaws, baby

But that's now how the story ends

And yeah, I know it, but I still like to pretend

That you my lover and my friend

And after we done working on ourselves

You cross my path and we gon' fall in love again

But isn't that what we all say

Just so we can soften up the heartbreak

Sad to say I learned that s**t the hard way

Real question is

Did you really mean all of that s**t

Or am I waiting on a date that don't exist?

Please let me know

Did you only tell me that we could

Just to hide the fact you leaving me for good?

'Cause if so that's fine

I'll just keep on working on myself

To be as happy as I was when you were mine

'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better

Struggling to keep it all together

Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na

'Cause I've been so patient

Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving

You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting

I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration

Know that you ain't coming back but I'll be waiting anyway

What's inside my heart for you is way more than these words can say

Way more than these songs

Tryna right my wrongs

Feelings that I got for you too strong

I can't leave you lone

This pain just ain't gon' stop till you come home

And this ain't how it's supposed to be

And if it is then that ain't good enough for me

'Cause in my heart I still believe that you and me are still meant to be

So, I'ma grow into the person that you need

Tell you come home, home, home

I've been all alone, 'lone, 'lone, 'lone

I find it crazy it's been working

You not by my side, but still make me a better person

If it ain't meant to be then I'ma end up all alone

But that'll be alright aslong you notice that I've grown

'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better

Struggling to keep it all together

Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na

'Cause I've been so patient

Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving

You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting

I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration, uhmm