I'm throwing up on the sidewalk

It's 2:00 am everybody left

I just embarrassed myself for an hour

Now I'm sitting in a neighborhood

I don't even recognize

I didn't even want to go out

I kind of thought it would help just a little

But I'm lying to myself 'cause

I know in a weeks time I won't try to realize

This ain't no way to live so why does everybody brag about it

I guess it easier to fill yourself with poison

While your holding on to moments you can glorify

And I've been stuck for awhile now cause

I've been saying this for three damn years

Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or

Will I crumble will I fall?

Will anybody care at all?

Am destined to be damaged?

Am I too far gone?

Believe me when I say

It ain't fair to feel this way

But I'll poison myself till I'm too far gone

I'm driving home when I shouldn't

I didn't even remember the drive

How could I be so selfish every time that I feel helpless

I crossed through every single line

I'm not convinced that I'm living 'cause if I was

I'd be able to feel something

Maybe it's a part of me or maybe it's just hard to see

What everyone else can find

Theres gotta be a reason

This lifestyle ain't meant for dreamers

But they'll tell you its okay

Waste your 20's away

Cause your only young for a moment

And I've been stuck for awhile now

Cause I've been saying this for three damn years

Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or

Will I crumble will I fall?

Will anybody care at all?

Am destined to be damaged?

Am I too far gone?

Believe me when I say

It ain't fair to feel this way

But I'll poison myself

Till I'm too far gone

And how long will it take

Till I'm beaten down

Bruised then break

Still you can find me in the evening

I'll be too far gone

Yeah I'm too far gone